as the last dreamer that i visited at college walked back into his dorm i knew that something had changed... that i had reached a new milestone... this stone had Acceptance written on one side and Trust written on the other... i must accept that the 8th grade students that i met 7yrs ago are now almost 21 yr old adults whom hold the outcome of their future in their own hands, i must accept that i did all that i could to prepare them for success by giving them a wide variety of life tools... and finally i must trust that God will continue to protect/guide them on their paths, and that they will call me if they get lost... or at least i hope so... (immature translation = oh please oh please oh please call me for help)
year 7 is a perfect year to transition out , you know since it is God's number of completion... but it still is hard... change and life tranisitions are scary and uncomfortable... i knew that it would end one day buuuuuut... well, you know the big question... what now?. i had this IHAD job down packed.... and now i am starting a new one, probably the most important job ever, being a full-time 365/24/7 MOM... how do you create a resume to qualify for this gig... it feels different when they are really your own, i am responsible for this child's upbringing and well-being, no one else to blame for her life hic-cups but myself... and i am going in full-force - no "new" career to provide an escape for 8hrs per day... OMG now talk about life changes... i have worked a steady job since i was 15yrs old... now i won't be a bread-winner but a bacon-cooker... (the best possible organic bacon-cooker that is lol)... now i wont be a tailored suit professional but a stay-at-home mom expected to breastfeed, homecook, and clean.... OMG my Masters Degree did not train me for this...sigh- Lord please make me domestic... nevertheless, here i come new job... i hear that the hours are long and that the pay is low, but i know the experience will be PRICELESS... so where do i stand in line to get my "certified mother" name badge... but after 7 yrs it is just hard to walk away... i mean this group of people has experienced 2 degrees, a wedding, cars, several trips, a boatload of hilarious life experiences, and now a pregnancy with me- sigh
what happened to the good ol days when people just clocked in, worked at their station for 8 hrs, and then clocked out without any emotional connection gosh!!! well thanks boss lady, sponsors, and dreamers for trusting and working with me all these years... i truely love you and will forever hold dear our relationships..."it's so hard to say goodbye, to yesterday"
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What a fantastic post. Amen to your second paragraph! As I read it, I realized I felt the same but didn't have the words to express the feeling...so i will just say ditto.
I know that Baby Best is getting the best Mommy in the world! Your joy, compassion, and creativity enriched the lives of all of us at IHAD. I appreciate your willingness to challenge me and help make IHAD what it is.
May God continue to bless you and your family. You and Justin are the perfect people to guide Baby Best to adulthood. I'm sure she will be an awesome person because she has ya'll for parents.
La Novia
thanks atl girl -lm... let the record show that you have improved me and mafe me cry again with that sweet post.. lol
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